Thursday, February 28, 2008

Recap of week.

This week has def been interesting and I'm ready for friday. We were supposed to have our math test on Tuesday but had it on Wedensday instead. It was easy. Tuesday was fun beacause we had our "poetry readings" in my honors lit class. My teacher really created that mood and we had coffe and tea. Of course I didn't like mine but I really enjoyed listening to others. There are some amazing writers in that class. Even when it was made to seem funny the poems revealed something about everyone. Tomorrow is my AP quiz and when we get to see a theatere company preform Romeo and Juliet! This Sat. i'm going to help clean part of the Silver Comet trail with my beta club, and next week I have 3 major projects due. However they are for the most part easy. My biology project is time consuming , but def intersting. I have to create a 5 generation pedigree chart and have pics for at least half the people in it. My brother (matt) seems to be having even more of his anger fits this week. We no longer have a printer and my second cell phone has been smashed. I got my first cell phone for christmas and my second after he smashed the first. Both were my parents old ones but I liked them. At least they are only material things though. Sometimes I get really tired of having a brother that does what he does. I love him, but I wish he didn't get so angry and I have a roller coaster of emotion from it. These are the time I must lean on God the most, and I feel his presence in a stronger way. I like that feeling that peace even if I've got some hard valley's to walk through to find it. There is no instant solution no magic powder but there is God. What could be better?

Sunday, February 24, 2008

I just got back from an awesome youth group session. It never fails to get me to think and open my heart and mind. It always brings to mind something I can apply to my life. My youth leader is great, he helps my spirtual life so much, and he's def. wise. I love hanging with the people in youth to. They are so nice and just funny. Now if only I could stop bieng so shy! When people or older than me even by just a year I tend to be shy I guess because of an automatic need to please type thing that I don't even think about! For example I normally talk non stop but around older people I am just eerily quiet, but that is not always bad because I can learn from just bieng quiet so It's something I'm praying about~How to find the balance. Anyway the lesson tonight was about choices,and one of the things we talked about that struck me was the choice to seek advice. I'm the type of person who turns inward with a decesion, and granted that hasn't turned out bad, i'm thinking in addition I could be seeking counsel to help me not only with my choices but to grow spirtually as well.

Thursday, February 21, 2008

freedom.

17Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom.-2 Corinthians 3:17

Freedom has many different meanings to many different people, but isn't it something we all want? I've noticed that especially in the teen years a lot of life revolves around the idea of freedom: Bieng able to go places with friends rather than family, getting your liscence, your own car, going to college, living away from home. We view all these things as freedom. We wait in anticipation for all these events. I know I do. I can't tell you the number of times i've desperatly wished for these events to be upon me. But this verse tells us that true freedom is in the Lord, and as nice and as wonderful as all those events are they aren't the kind of freedom that will put us on the right path. I remember a time when I was in my room and I was just about to rip my brothers head off. I wanted so bad to yell and scream at him and make him see how he hurt me. I contemplated throwing anythinng that was in my reach, but then I remembered the many words the bible has against anger. I rembered the verse that said to feed your enemies if they are hungry, give them simething to drink if they are thirsty and in doing so you will heap burning coals on their heads. And for minutes I felt so restrained, I didn't feel free. Look at what he does to me I thought , and I can't show him a fraction of what I feel because I'm a better person! He screams at me , he hits me, and he hurts me with his words, and feels no guilt, and I have to do nothing about it? Then I realized that I really didn't want to yell and scream and carry on, yea I was angry but I didn't want to act like that. I realized God and his words weren't a restriction on me, but a freedom I hadn't connsidered before. They offered me the freedom to walk with God, and to make the right choices. Now when I'm angry and want to lose it I try to remember the freedom I can find in God . I don't always remember within the right time frame, but I have decided that I will choose the freedom that GOD offers me in every respective of my life. So what do you think? What freedom have your experieced in God?

Monday, February 18, 2008

backround info on me.

Well I guess it's time to fill you in on me. My middle name is Lane. I am 14 years old, and was born on July 13th , 1993 at 2:20 in the afternoon at Northside hospital. I have long curly brown hair that sits at my belly button. In December I will cut it for locks of love, but will try to keep it as long as possible, while still donating a lot ,if that makes any sense. After that I plan to grow it to my knees, and then well most likely donate it again, however you will never see me with short hair. It drives me crazy, I can't do anything with it. I am currently about 5'1, and the shortest person in my biology class(and probably in most of my other classes to)! yes! I always said that I either wanted to be really tall or really short, never average, so I guess I got my wish :). Who knows I might have another growth spurt in me , but I like bieng short so yeah. I have blue eyes and wear glasses that are shaped like squished hexagons. I have a light to fair skin tone, and most people say I look exactly like my mom. I'm in the ninth grade at North Paulding High School and I currently take all advanced courses there. At this point I feel lead by God to be a teacher. I hope to go to college with a double major in elementary education and special education. I want to teach as soon as possible , but through the course of my career I hope to recieve a doctorate in both of the above areas. I don't want to be anything more than a regular teacher, I just want to challenge myself and be the best teacher I can be. I want to study abroad in Italy and spend one year teaching in an LDC(less developed country). And if it is God's will I hope to be married and have a big family, biological and adopted. Above all else though I want to continue to grow in Christ. My spirtual experience began at a very young when I accepted Christ. My mom has always worked In churches so they become my second home, most of the time I spent more time there than my house.This instilled a deep love of the church which helped my relationship with him grow. I would throw screaming fits if we had to miss church . Once I even put on my mom's enormouse parka filled the pockets with all the change I could find and threatened to walk there. When I was in sixth grade my faith reached a defining moment. That time was a rough time in my life I was making the change from elementary to middle school, and making what felt like a thousand others at the same time. We had stopped going to the church I grew up at and we had not started going anywhere else. I greatly missed my second home , and as you can imagine was not happy that we weren't at least going somewhere. I had previously been plugged into every sort of sport, and heavily involved in church so I was a liitle lost, and things in my house had seemed to have reached a boiling point. Most of the time I felt like I was 2 people,but now I thank God for that time in my life. In that time I relied heavily on God, I began to study his word and grow closer to him, and thousands of door opened up in my faith. We finally started going to church again at Due West UMC and I LOVE it. I have two younger brothers. My interest include reading ,writing, knitting,and volunteering. I love to write and am currently trying to write some books, and I hope to continue that. I am a walking oxymoron. I can be quiet or loud(more often loud) shy or outgoing(I'm usually shy at first but once you get to know me I never shut up, and sometimes i'm just outgouing for know reason.) I talk really fast! To me it's normal but it amazes most people. I've been known to deliver a full page typed speech in about 45 seconds. I like to meet new people, although I sometimes feel shy at first I can usually get over that fairly quick. I love bieng creative, and most of my writing is exteremly detailed( as you've probably guessed!) I am definatly a bookworm and a self-proclaimed nerd, but I like that. I talk a lot, and I love to schock and amaze people, usually by how much of a nerd I truly am. I also like to smile and help somebody. I volunteer with children a lot especially special needs children, I love it. ( I think I'm overusing the word!) I spend some time as a hippotherapy volunteer, as well. I 'm the editor of my school's yearbook and am involved in the beta club. My high school is only ninth grade and my class will be the seniors all four years. If anybody actually read this far wow!

Saturday, February 16, 2008

lyrics to think on

Michael W. Smith - The Heart Of Worship Lyrics
When the music fades
All is stripped away
And I simply come
Longing just to bring
Something that's of worth
That will bless Your heart
I'll bring You more than a song
For a song in itself
Is not what You have required
You search much deeper within
Through the way things appear
You're looking into my heart

I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And it's all about You,
It's all about You, Jesus
I'm sorry, Lord, for the thing I've made it
When it's all about You,
It's all about You, Jesus

King of endless worth
No one could express
How much You deserve
Though I'm weak and poor
All I have is YoursEvery single breath
I'll bring You more than a song
For a song in itselfIs not what You have required
You search much deeper within
Through the way things appear
You're looking into my heart

I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And it's all about You,
It's all about You, Jesus
I'm sorry, Lord, for the thing I've made it
And it's all about You,
It's all about You, Jesus

I'm coming back to the heart of worship,
And it's all about You,
It's all about You, Jesus
I'm sorry, Lord, for the thing I've made it
And it's all about You
,It's all about You, Jesus
Jesus answered, "It is written: 'Man does not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God."

This is my favorite bible verse because it speaks deeply to me. We live in a time where we "Live" off so many things. I know that I live of music, noise , books, and so many wordly things. It so easy to justify bieng addicted to or "living" on these things . IE: It helps me concentrate, i'm tired, I like it, whatever you want to insert here. This verse puts everything into perspective for me. All we need is God. Whenever I come across this verse it reminds me that I need to take a step back and focus on God. So often I find that i'll turn on something just for the noise or watch something I don't like just for something to do. Could I not just spend some time in God's word or just talk to him. I say this beacause the times when I can hear God clearly, when I can feel him deeply are when all is quiet and I am listening, yet so often I don't let myself listen I turn up the music instead. This verse reminds me to listen, reawakens me to the fact that some of the things I'm placing importance on don't matter. All we need and all we have ever needed is God.
Have you, like me ever found yourself focusing on something other than God,like homework video games, facebook, ect, instead of just listening. If so how did you realign yourself, what steps did you take?

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

little more info

Well, I created this blog because for a long I've wanted to start something where I could talk about my spritual life , share thoughts and verses from the bible and stuff. I hope to kick that of this weekend when I can add some things to get me started. What I plan to do is at least once a week, most likely more often, post a verse and my thoughts on it/ my life applications of it as well as ways in which I struggle with it. I will also post about my daily life, but I want to grow in my faith by sharing it with others.


Here is a video of one of my two little brothers. It's so adorable!:

video

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

Welcome to my blog!

Well, I just started this blog so we will see how it goes! I'm going to try to add some really cool things and tell you all about me a little later. Right now, I have homework so i'll be back.